 This is Aina Nadira.... Our baby girl.
Born on May 12, she is now almost a month old.
Needless to say, she's brought quite a few changes in our lives and honestly, with her around, I don't feel like I want to go back to work anymore!
Ideally, I'd always wanted to stay home and care for my babies, bring up my kids on my own. Unfortunately, that's not possible for now... BUT, doing some calculations, I guess having a child a bit later in life has it's plus points because by the time Aina is a teenager I may be able to opt for early retirement!!!
(that's the only way I can console myself for not being able to be a stay-at-home mom!!!)
Bringing Aina into the world definitely has it's challenges... but I believe every cloud has a silver lining, and we can only do the best and HOPE for the best outcome for everyone. So far, it's been a learning process, and we can only go with the flow and pray that what we're doing is best for her.
First two weeks was difficult for me, as I had a bout of baby blues. I burst into tears at any time, and caring for Aina was not so easy as I had to undergo a c-section to get her out. My milk supply was also non-existent which really took a toll on me.
I had not even considered the possibility of not being able to breastfeed, and assumed that it would all be smooth-sailing, and that Aina will grow up to be a healthy, chubby baby from my own milk. NEVER did I consider any type of formula, and even though we bought feeding bottles, it was always with the thought that when I go back to work, Aina will be fed with my expressed milk kept in the freezer in the special freezer bags I'd bought specifically for that purpose. SO, to finally be hit by the reality that I was UNABLE to feed my own daughter.... needless to say, it was a crushing blow!
I had done and ate everything that was said to be able to help, but nothing helped! Grapes, fenugreek seeds, white radish, massages, etc.... NOTHING worked for me.
Finally, I gave up after about 2 weeks of trying, and decided that I will enjoy AINA and to hell with breastfeeding!!! Some people may say I gave up too soon, or I didn't try hard enough -- well, to hell with them too!!
Things are finally starting to smooth out for us, and we've sort of set a routine to care for Aina. Besides, Aina seems to favour her father during her night feeds (thank GOD!!!) because she likes to be carried about and not stay put in bed. Definitely something we need to work on in a few weeks time, when Aina can start to be trained.
Wish us lots and LOTS of luck!!!
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